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Friday, 20 November 2009

  • moved on

    It's been almost 2 months to La Rochelle, i'm glad i finally find some kinda belongingness feeling here. Sometimes was thinking, the person like me, afraid of getting into a new place, because hardly fit suit myself into the new environment..but time by time i ran out of home since i started the first one....

    Ended the life in uk wasn't easy, especially after i met him, the guy i found most important in my life after i fell in love with. Someday sometimes i have to admit, it was so stupid and silly, and yet i chose to love this way..because the dumbness brought out warmth and love in my heart, so perfectly.

    oh yeah just cut my hair~

                                                

    Used to live like, the connection between people was flexible, nothing lasts forever except family.
    Previous experiences didn't really held me down, and it gave me courageous to move on.
    Never felt this kinda love before, because couldn't bear to stop contact with this person after connected with..
    The love might started wrongly, and unexpectedly last longer than i expected.
    Something is still holding myself, when the reality tells it's time to release if i feel pain.
    People, how could we move on when we find the correct one?
    People, how could we stand still just to love correct one for only that moment?
    People, are all the matters in the world have been set?
    If its true, then i'm gonna thank God for all the situations he gave, i believe, things gonna work out as long as i tried. Even in this hardcore love, when it's time to release, no one could stop, and the contrary.
    And when you realized after trying it still didn't work out, it means that's not belonged to you.
    No matter what kinda complicated feelings appeared in my heart, i cried and cried, and at the end i still have to tell myself to stand up, to return to a normal one.
    This is the world, its realistic and facts. You love you have emotions and you gonna work it out with the life.
    This year was full, with sister, with friendship, and with him. So full that i don't care about the tears that i dropped, because whenever after i would make myself laugh harder to make sure that everything i've been through was worth. I'm gonna work harder, so that lindsay would start to enjoy her life, so that she could work out on things that she is interested, but not just earning money~
    I'm gonna work harder, so that in the future could go travel again with probably lindsay and also Shen..he's growin up as well~and i bet 3 of us gonna enjoy our life so much.






Tuesday, 23 June 2009

  • Playboy

    A playboy, would definately sweet, gentle, polite. They attract your heart in that way. They are confident, smart and sometimes innocent. They make u feel safe whenever u're empty, they make u feel u're not the only one when they manage to catch ur sadness and loneliness. They even can catch what' re thinking and doing the thing that you wanted to.

    Don't get lose when this kinda ppl approach u, because they don't eventually and instantly belong to u. They are just testing their attractiveness using the preys. They love women, they love to see them laughing and smiling because of them. But they don't like to see their tears, if u gonna fight with playboy u gonna hide all ur emotional feelings when u meet them, put on some neglect on them, they would move back to you for temporarily.

    This kinda people, never thought that they are wrong, and they just claim that all the women love them. All of the women wanted to do so much on them, and claim that that's out of their control. And women in love, even though they know the playboy plays a lot of women, they still go for him. Unless you have the stone heart, unless u're very cold hearted, otherwise you might eventually fall into them deeply, even initially you thought and told yourself you just gonna have fun with them. 

    Clever gals, learn up and play back! (if you could~)

Sunday, 26 April 2009

  • 我哭,我笑

    有时候觉得很害怕,因为想到自己活得很开心,很幸福,所以不享有不愉快的事情发生。有时候觉得很有信心,因为想到自己已经经历了很低潮的时刻,应该没有什么是可以伤害到自己。可是结果都一样,是因为心灵原本就很脆弱吗。。 。

    很开心离开你以后和你相处的这一个月半,我感觉到你在我心的重要,我感觉到自己过得很充实,虽然休息的时间少了,可是觉得人变得更有精神。为了你,我都不想睡。为了你,我都自然而然的早醒。我莫名其妙的早醒吵醒了你,可是你都不会生气,还煮了碗面给我吃,好让我可以再睡多一会儿。很想一直和你一起生活,就好像回到以前一样。只有我们知道对方的喜好,只有我们知道我们的笑话,我们的默契。

    我从来都没想过我们可以这样开怀的享受这段日子,和你一起去旅行,没烦恼,没负担。从伦敦到巴黎,到荷兰,到瑞士,我都不愿让时间消失,可是我留不住它。我知道我很依赖你,到现在还是,虽然我在这边有自己的生活圈子,可是我还是依赖你。而且我不想变得不再依赖你了,因为我不想接受我们长大了的事实。甚至我们回到 Liverpool, 当我去上班,你会在我休息的时候来找我,就觉得很奇妙,很幸福,觉得这应该是我做梦才会发生的事。

    在你离开的时候,我哭了。虽然你看不到,我不知你有没有感觉到,因为我在送你的时候都很镇定,以知道你离开我的视线,眼泪就往我的脸颊流。我再也没有控制自己,再也控制不了。我想哭,我舍不得,我怀念,我的心回不来。你离开后,我都睡不好,我早上起床都会流眼泪。就算上班的时候会和平常一样,可是早上起身害怕的感觉都挥不掉。现在的我,生活习惯都变了,一直在作者一个月和你做的事,我忘记不到,也不想自己忘记,因为觉得没有你的保护,我根本不是我。所以一直把你放在心里,活得像和你生活一样。

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

  • she's coming oh she's comin so soon! only God knows my feeling now. and i'm preparin my luggage as well like what she doin over there, just to wait for the day we meet! I know she would be enjoying this whole trip, for this one and half month, she gets rid of the heavy workload, of her own business, of those relatives that we'll never join into, of her relationship man that sometimes cause a lil bit unhappy. She will no longer have the time to have a glance at her mail box, nor calling to report her location. Good for her,^.^

                                                       2264513970_8b2b987684_m[1] It's been so long, we never had picture together. This time ur arrival, we gonna make it double volume.

    Went to watch "he's just not that into you" justnow, and realized, sometimes, somehow, a guy, wasn't really that into you, even when you thought he was really into you. In my world, great things have to be done when i was on the heat, when i was on the fire. If i didn't make it on time, i knew i'll never make it anymore. And again i knew, if i managed to make it that moment, i'll be regretting, on the crazy acts. I hated it when things turned into responsibilities, when love and care finally turned into burdens. I never wanted these into my life, that was why i never liked people to control me, to direct me how to live into a better way, into the way that they wanted me to. Thank God my sis loves me, so she always sets me free, and i think dad is gonna make it that way as well, to accept the "Disobey" me.

Wednesday, 18 February 2009

  • I won't let the trips end, not letting them collapse.

    It was Chinese New Year time, and i did greeted family with webcam. Talking about 2 hours with everyone of them, even ah ma felt amazing when i appeared on the screen and heard all of their conversation. So she kept appearing at the screen, LOLZ, she was cute and funny~!First time i had CNY away from home, anyway i still try to make myself into CNY mood by visiting the China Town here in the morning. There were some stalls, selling CNY stuffs and food. And so cute when you saw those English hanging small lion toys on their hands instead of Chinese. Except on the 1st day i had the cny feeling, the rest had back to normal life. Well, sometimes life's brief.

    the country i visited last time was Barcelona, Spain. Well, the attractive part was we got to shop a lot at the main street, and it was so happening at the place. We managed to grabbed some sales stuff, and some special accesories as well. Wee, that was what girls wanted.

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    Alright, Spanish spoke less english than italian did. So we always found difficulties when communicate with them. Aha!forget to mention, we bought new luggages from Roxy during the boxing sales for our trips, couldn't wait to show it off!

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    The another attration was our enthusiasm of searching the ice bar that shown in the brochure had finally fulfilled our curiousity. The 1st time i entered this kinda bar, and it was very special and unique. I bet it gets crowd if this open in msia. And all the bars nearby seemed to be so cool and looked elegant from outside.

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     Yeah before that we tried this, to get drawn by somebody and paid around 20 euro, they were all skillful, all you have to do was just sit still and smiled. The thing that i noticed on Spanish, was 9 out of 10 of them, would normally have rings on their ears, noses and tongues. Such a common crab to them, and they were very pro on it.

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    It was kinda short to visit there just few days, perhaps more days would be more relaxin but hey, next time, make it during summer.

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